Because I am Me….(I still exists & I have no exit)

RAW

Stay Tune in the possibilities of living in life is a big task. Comfort zones are still a far cry for me. When the things are going in a relaxed path, like the past the fate is showing its teeth massively.

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The change in terrain for flowing is a good one. But the coincident is Crows and Wolves are same in each and every arena. I can’t inhale their hot whispering. Resisting is a breathtaking one if it is happening in a golden cage. Productivity, calibre and eminence can’t play their roles perfectly in-front of the restriction of a repugnant play. I am an untethered Kite. My wind is my freedom and my space of creativity. I am a Lion in a wild forest, not an one in a Zoo. Regain of my Kingdom is very near.

Because I am Me.

REALIZE

If it is my professional side, another side is remaining. That is personal. In my past periods I was mistakenly driven to mystical paths to find the eternal love, an enchanting relation and an evergreen life. But those were really mistakes. After that I was totally secluded to a situation of no action. But from one day I started to feel an unique feeling when I looking to a person’s face. That was not like the feel happened in past. That was still an awesome experience and still is in us. That person’s care, words, advises and love made me as a perfect man and a perfect Leo. Suddenly I started craving for staying in that experience and feel for my life long. But the reality shook its head in a form of NO. My brain accepted it but my heart is still craving. I know my wish is not going to happen, but I like to dream that in each and every second of my clock. I know we have to live our own lives as separated. I will not be in that person’s happiness but definitely I will be with that person’s dumps and insecurity like a pillar.

Because I am Me.

If I am an animal, I am a Lion

If I am a bird, I am an Eagle

If I am a tree, I am a Teak

If I am water, I am a River

If I am me, definitely I am me……

Divergent

Some people are divergent.

 

 They can feel music in each and every pulse of Mother Nature.

They can see the eternal life in every creation.

They can touch the soul in every body.

They can feel the secret sigh in every sobs.

They can see dewy eyes in every smile.

 

 They will melt and perish in every eye drops.

Later they will reborn as a gleaming candle.

 

 They are the most shining people

Not due to their alluring skin.

It’s because of the ability of their eyes to see the beauty of the world.

 

 They will move always

They will flow always

In every lives

In every souls.

Like a shade and like a shelter.

 

 They will dream for themselves

But they can only deliver than obtaining

They can only find the happiness in it.

 

 People always shoot sarcasms to them

It will affect them

But they will rejuvenate with a captivating smile.

 

 They are the real outlying artists.

They haven’t any followers

They are flowers.

 

 Failures are their own

One day the word fail will fail and fall in front of them, after the sequels of failures.

There they will win.

They will kiss the eternal victory.

 

 “Yes, they are divergent

This world is their home.”

 

 

The Time

This time is wordless

This is the time of a mouth less

and  This is the time of imposture

 

This is the time to sow the seeds

This is the time of dry fields

This is the time of sorry

and This is the time of endurance

 

Pretending of many, is the time

Pretending to many, is the time

Now I can just say it’s a long time

The time of altercation

 

This is the time of reasonless reasons

The time of no stories

Views are only time

Perceptions are only time

But this time is really unseen

 

I have a time

A time, of a time.

 

Annihilation of haze

I had given my job discontinuation letter to my Team Leader on 08^th day of this month. I think this is the perfect time to leave. I have two reasons to satisfy my mind. One is to find a better option, a higher level job, a new task or a new study. Second one is not to be insane.

31st January 2013, that was my joining day. In these days I had learned a lot. In my office, majority were women and then it was too tough for me to work with them. But day by day I learned how to mingle with them, how to lessen the loneliness in a crowd. I had considered them as my own people and the experience with them was awesome. Some people are still with me and some are not, any way I am really thankful to them for their great concern, care, attachments and detachments.

After joining this job, I had moulded to heavy emotional, soft hearted and less practical. I was a researcher – to find some attention, some recharging points and some stress relieving . In some arena I had earned a lot of and In some I failed. That pain was not heart breaking but it was breath taking. But I learned how to step up from my each fall. In my each fall, an elevator will appear infront of me that helps to go to the original place. Some times it will appear as a person and some times as a situation or a comment.

Meaningless emotions make a person as meaningless. But I know , my words have a meaning but the opposite person’s brain does not take them as a meaningful one. It’s like trying to fill an inverted pot .Yes those incidents are past. But now I am keeping such things in my mind for a remembrance to encourage my mentality ” You are weak, your mind is weak, your character is becoming weak, your mentality is going to be insane, your mind is full of confusions,  beware such things, reform….reform…reform”. Some times when I say this to my mind I will be a dewi eyed person. How could people swing their emotions, making gaps, I don’t know, but I am totally tired in these junctures. Any person can give advice and I have heard a lot of them but no one can give a perfect guidance.

Any way I haven’t any words to say about the awesome experience in my organization. Lot of fun, happiness, pain, infatuations, attachments,detachments, hatred, insults, grooming, study and after the study….LEAVE. These are my experiences and this is the time to leave, the perfect time to vacate…..and waiting for the last day…..

“Manners Makes Man”